April 2011
5 posts
DDDDDDDDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTT...
nothing is worth it anymore. nothing is worth it. i can’t find happiness anymore. i can’t find peace or serenity. i can’t find love without having to ask for it. i can’t find understandance unless i make things obvious to others. i need someone who knows me, and can handle me. i need a father. i need a loving mother and sister. i need more true friends. i need some freaking...
i hate my life. and i want to die.
when you confront a parent about their bad...
the story of the dog and his bone
there once was a dog, who was brought into this world under harsh circumstances. this dog had lost his mother at a young age, and was nursed and cared for by a farmers wife. this puppy grew up and to his knowledge was treated well. it was only when this puppy started attending puppy training classes did it realize how cruelly he had been treated, and how horrible his life was. you see almost every...
March 2011
10 posts
i have that sickening feeling, the feeling that it’s all too real for me right now. the anxiety, the depression the lack of will to live without him…. the feeling of being vulnerable and alone. this depression is eating me up, last night i though that if i just ignored it eventually it would go away. i go for bad to great to worse then before. why is my mind a fucking maze, a trap,...
life...
i can’t see a reason worth living it anymore.
i've clearly mistaken you for someone, who i once...
cry, cry, cry.... tears of joy and pain.
i can feel it inside sometimes. just festering and boiling away. i need to find a way to spew this black venom, but nothing seems to work… what is the cure for my disease… i would sell my soul to the devil for it.
such a pretty girl, caught up in such an ugly...
i was dead before i was even alive. S.O.S
i see myself dying right before my very own eyes. i see it in my weight loss, because i can’t stand to look at myself naked in the mirror as all i see is a vulgar piece of shit staring right back at me. i see it in the strands of hair i leave on my pillow every morning when i wake up, because i stress so much and i just can’t help but stress… it’s in my nature. i see it in...
August 2010
3 posts
July 2010
35 posts
sometmes i think to myself, why are you destroying...
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
dear emma.
you have actually been my longest friend. all though i had done alot of changing and growing up and maturing since i was 12 we are still the same, we grew up the same, under the same circumstances and our family’s shared the same morals.
then you locked me in a room when i was 12 and sung really bad till i cried. YOUR A FUCKING BITCH! i joke, i joke, we’ve gotten past this...
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
dear family overseas,
i dont have much to say to you, but im disappointed in your efforts.
nicola.x
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
i dont miss what i had, i miss what i could have had.
superman - eminem
my anthem currently ♥
i've made up my mind.
i don’t miss anyone, i have everyone who i want in my life currently. i even have people who i don’t want in my life, and i cant wait for you to finally leave it. as soon as these people go and i forget about them, everything will be perfect. so please……leave without and hassle. thank you. and take everything you represent and offer with you, because its not wanted here...
“See that girl? Yeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up...”
– (via cool-kids-cant-die) (via prettyreckles)
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
this one goes out to quite a few of you….
clearly things have happend along the way for us to not be as close anymore. but chances are i wish they hadnt…
im sorry if it was my fault…
x
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
dear chris
i know what i did had to be one of the biggest mistakes i have ever made in my life. but i was 14…. i was still learning things, still learning what to do and what not to do. and you were still learning how to be a good enough boyfriend, and you were cutting it short to be completely honest with you, i think because of that fact i did what i did.
if it were me now i know i...
fuck, you're annoying.
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot...
this is to no one in specific just to everyone who has done so to me.
what the hell is wrong with you? how could i ever be so stupid to trust you or ever allow you into my heart/life. you were a waste of time and shall always remain one. how do you feel knowing i am writing this about you? how do you know feeling that there is someone in the world that you have hurt so much that you can never be...
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk...
dearest grandma and grandpa,
i dont know you, and i never will. i will never know a single about either of you…
maybe i was just never ment to get to know you…..
or anybody else like you for that matter.