life isn't always peaches and cream.

nothing is worth it anymore. nothing is worth it. i can’t find happiness anymore. i can’t find peace or serenity. i can’t find love without having to ask for it. i can’t find understandance unless i make things obvious to others. i need someone who knows me, and can handle me. i need a father. i need a loving mother and sister. i need more true friends. i need some freaking more hugs!! i want to ecscape from this life. i want something that’s just going to numb me, make me forget, make me lose control of my emotions so they don’t get the better of me anymore. right now, i need someone who is going to give me there all, coz i’m in too much of a weak place to accept anything less. i don’t know what the answer is, i don’t know what to do or how to help myself. as i’m sure neither do you. but i just want to give up. i just want… NO NEED a freaking break. i want to kill myself. i want to kill myself, so badly.