dear chris

i know what i did had to be one of the biggest mistakes i have ever made in my life. but i was 14…. i was still learning things, still learning what to do and what not to do. and you were still learning how to be a good enough boyfriend, and you were cutting it short to be completely honest with you, i think because of that fact i did what i did.

if it were me now i know i wouldnt have done anything as stupid as what i did. the events of that night changed me, changed my future plans and my way of thinking about things. you weren’t right for me in the begining i dont know why i ever thought you were.

you must have really liked me thinking back to it, you never showed me though…. slight things you did made me think so, but other things like not holding my hand? just made me feel stupid for liking you so much. i find it hard to not go upto you when i see you and apologize, i know it would be stupid of me to do but i just want you to know that i do feel bad.

but your happy now, i havent found my happiness yet but im sure i will. so just goes to prove everything happens fro a reason…

x